The definition of learning is a change in behavior.
Learning is the result of experience.
Learning is multifaceted.
The levels of learning are:
Rote
Understanding
Application
Correlation

Repeating the same mistakes over and over again is foolish.
I am the greatest of fools because i know the truth, the path and the word, but i live only the void.
It is my pain, my prison, my world and most devastatingly, my choice....

I understand why Chris McCandles went tramp. I have had the desire myself. So much so that i almost turned left instead of right. 3rd star from the right and straight on till morning.
Who doesn't want to set out on a life defining adventure?
I already know the answer he was searching for, at least in the context of myself.
It isn't something i can chase. In the greatest reality of it, the more i run from it the more likely it'll find me.
You live the lie so the truth...

Y'know what hurts the most?

Knowing i did everything right, being found inadequate with my opinion deferred totally to someone else, finding myself inadequate.

The thing i just can't find a way to get over: ******** ** *** *****.

To find myself of one mind and purpose again.........

As much as i try to understand the world, people and myself, the harder i work at it the more confused and bewlidered i end up. I never seem to actually get whats going on.

I want someone to just spell it out for me as plainly as they can. WTF. I don't get why it is so difficult for people to just be straight forward.

I am completely exasperated.

I completely understand why some INTJs get so hostile to people.
Too many years in the whip's back...

I don't know what to think about some things or what i should do about them.
The only real option i have is to abandon all of it.

I know what McCandless was looking for, but you can't find it that way.

It just makes me feel so helpless, useless and deeply sad.